I’ve recently came across a poet/writer and fell in love with his work immediately. His words are inspiring and captivating to me .

Below is some of his quotes. You can find him on Facebook and Instagram. Please check him out. šŸ˜Š

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JmStorm

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For the past four years I've known I wanted to pursue my Doctorates just haven't quite made the time for it. Now I have made the time and will be making the resources available for myself to do so.

Sometimes we have to sacrifice the little things in order to get to greater things in life.

At this moment I'm applying to school and taking the necessary steps to get to my next level. I know I'll get there. It's just a matter of time. My goals is to complete my Doctorates by the time my son graduates High School. I know it's a goal that's going to be a challenge due to my schedule but it's a goal I'm willing to put to the test.

I will do this and give it my all.

Future: Dr. K White

Autism, Keena's Moments, Reflections

I’m Ready

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" I'm proud of you"… Not to many people will let you know that they are proud of you. Because you accomplish so much they feel that you should automatically be proud of yourself. It's not that you're not proud of yourself. It sometimes just mean the world to hear it from those you love, care about, or is proud of too. To hear these words from a good friend meant the world to me today. It wasn't much but it was everything. My friendship with this person reminded me of why I push so hard to be where I am today and where I will be in the future. I refuse to give up. It's okay to let people know you're rooting for them and you're proud of them. We don't say it enough to each other.

Autism, Keena's Moments, quotes, Reflections

I’m Proud

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Today I got to be there for a friend I haven't spoken to in years. We were the best of friends and still is. I did feel some type of way because we haven't spoke and I've always reached out and never heard back from her. After, speaking to her today I now understand why. She truly had a lot going on and allowed her Pride to get the best of her. I share her struggle because I too at times allow my pride to get the best of me. I listened as she shared with me what's going on. I provided her with words of encouragement and let her know that I love her and will always be there for her.

You truly never know what a person is going through no matter how much you think you know them.

It's nice being able to listen without Judgement and to be fully present and there for a person.

Keena's Moments

Be There

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In life we think of many things. We contemplate. What shall I do next? Who should I give my heart to? What should I major in? Should I get a new car? Should I get my own place? Should I tell so and so how I feel? Should I care what people think of me? The list of continues and goes on. I contemplate over things daily. I only contemplate just for a brief moment then I make my decision. Well, that's only for simple problems but for bigger issues. The comtemplation may go on for days maybe months. Never into years. No contemplation is worth that long of a thought. Contemplating should only be temporary nothing long term.

It should however be continuous.

How do you contemplate?

Autism

ContemplateĀ 

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So, I've been told I talk too much. Which is true at times. It all depends on who I'm around or my comfort level. If I am not comfortable I won't say a word. If I am then you'll hear my mouth. I won't talk your ear off but I'll definitely like to hold a conversation.

Now, when asked to talk in front of a crowd of people my FEAR keeps my 🤐 SHUT. I would find ways to get out of having to talk to a room full of people. I can't say that I don't know why it is because I do. It all stems from my childhood. Hell, everything stems from our childhood or tragic moment, doesn't it. Im Just saying.

My fear of public speaking began when I was in the 3rd Grade. I'll admit it, I was a talker. I didn't shut up for nothing. I participated in plays. I was one of the first ones to raise my hand because I knew the answers, I always wanted to read for the class. I enjoyed expressing what I knew until it got me into trouble. When it was time for Parent Teacher Conferences my teacher told my mom the only issue she has with me is that I TALK TOO MUCH! My mother wasn't so happy with me. She gave me a long talk and told me to " Stop running your mouth in class, school is for you to learn not just for you to be running your mouth"

So, I listened and I stopped talking. My confidence went down. I didn't want to participate in any school plays or class room activities. My participation grade dropped drastically from that point on. Each school year it got worse. Even in college it was hard to do presentations because I became a nervous wreck when it came to talking in front of a class.

I remember being put into a class because they thought something was wrong with me. I was pulled out for some type of class. I believe it was a english or reading class where we had to read and go over things. It wasn't that I didn't know the work I just didn't have the drive to do it anymore. I didn't want to be the motor mouth or know it all anymore.

One year I was placed in a spelling bee challenge because I passed all my spelling test and I knew all the words. However, we had to go on a stage and prove in front of the entire school. I purposely spelled Spaghetti wrong so that I can sit down. I was laughed at because I spelled it wrong and boy oh boy I wasn't able to live it down. Little did they know I spelled it wrong on purpose. I knew all the words that was presented. I would have won the trophy but what was the point.

I know that sucks but it's what I told myself to make it through school (What was the point) . I still got good grades and made the Honor Roll but the one thing I didn't do well at anymore was classroom participation. In college I kinda made up for it because I had to talk but I made sure I sat in the back and I wasn't as noticeable. I'd do presentations first only so that I can get them over with. During a presentation my body goes through an anxiety attack. First it starts with my heart racing, followed by sweaty hands. Then, my mouth gets extremely dry. I can barely talk. I want to run and hide. It seems like time has slowed down and everyone is judging me. I can't take everyone looking at me. So I talk faster and faster. The professors always say " Keena slow down and take your time" I'd slow down briefly and then I speed up just so I can sit down and feel normal again.

My fear still remains the same. I still talk but like I said not as much and only when I'm comfortable. I plan on shifting my fear and talking as much as I want to so that I can educate people. I feel that speaking is apart of my life and who I am. I know it may bother some while others appreciate it. I don't talk to talk annoy people. I talk to express myself like everyone else

Slowly but surely I will reduce my fears. I will speak in front of large crowds and I will not care what others think. I'm here for a reason and Speaking is apart of my Purpose

Be You! Live Your Purpose! Overcome Your Fears!

Autism

Overcoming A Fear of Speaking ….But I Talk Too Much

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Today, We decided to food shop, clean, relax, play games, go to the movies, and do lunch. Which won't be all in that order but it's going to take place today.

He's so much taller than I am. I miss him being my size or smaller. I'm glad he's back home. I've missed him being home. He came back a little anxious about school and friendships but we worked out his worries. I make sure I make it easy for him to come to me with anything he has going on in his mind. I try my best not to be his therapist but be his Mom with a lot of understanding.

He appreciates it. I'm glad my own personal and professional growth has changed me enough to be a better person for him.

He will always be one of my reasons why I do what I do. I love being his Mom 😊

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Autism

Mother & Son

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